Dear World,
“I have learned that, in order, to bring about change, one must take the first step, or else it will not be done,” ROSA PARKS, Civil Rights Leader.
Officially, I was convicted of federal trespassing, a misdemeanor, not a “crime” worthy of prison time. But, here I am all the same, trying to bear witness to the truth, while at the same time acting out as a disciple of God. To paraphrase Henry David Thoreau; if someone knows in his or her heart that a social/governmental institution is doing wrong, he/she must battle the institution, not with guns and bombs, but with conscientious civil disobedience. This of course was the same principle Gandhi studied, and later Dr. Martin Luther King, and multitudes of other moral, freedom seekers and activists have followed to date with great success.
Not only must I stand up against the
First and foremost is the deplorable Healthcare Services an inmate receives from an inept and incompetent staff. I am only one prisoner out of an over-crowed 1,100 men. I’ve been here now for 47 days. The pharmacy has made three mistakes with me alone. Can you do the math on the likelihood of how many more mistakes or errors have occurred if three have just happened to me in only 47 days? It’s astronomical times 1,100 inmates. This proves a much more alarming trend that is going on here at FCI Waseca. I fear, for legitimate reasons for my health and the health and welfare of the other “guinea pigs”, men living in this awful place.
On April 28th, I went to
Next, Dr. Gray from the beginning has refused to give me three of my medications, which my multitude of doctors and specialists has prescribed for me for the last 15 years. On May 12th, I saw Dr. Gray for the second time. Now, I am having many muscle spasms and “Charley Horses” in my leg calf. I have shooting and stabbing pain in my feet. My neck and shoulders are extremely tight and sore, because, mainly I still am not sleeping through the night. My body feels like it is falling apart, and some days I feel like a walking Zombie. I have been offering up all my pain to my Higher Power for the sins of this healthcare staff. I literally fear for my life! So, I will continue to pray for them to be better humans.
Dr. Gray with the full power and authority of god (the federal government), said that he absolutely knows without a shadow of doubt, similar when President Bush said Saddam had weapons of mass destruction, that much of the medications I’ve been taking is “bad medicine practiced” by all my doctors and specialists. They, my doctors are all wrong, but according to Dr. Gray, he is right. Talk about an egotistic, immoral, god-complex Dr. Gray harbors and practices, like an evil “witch doctor”.
“You are argumentative Mr. Diehl,” stated Dr. Gray. When I innocently would attempt to ask
questions for better understanding and clarity, Dr. Gray automatically labeled
me as argumentative, and refused to answer my questions. He said, “I have to keep my job”. He admitted that his job was more important
than the proper healthcare of the patients (prisoners). But, who does care about prisoners anyways? Bush?
Kerry? Nader? No one? The
treatment of inmates in the
As I was walking out of Dr. Gray’s office, he said, “you look 75% better than when I first saw you”. Well, da, I had been denied all my medications for almost three days, even though I brought with me my medical records. Of course, I was a basket case without any of my medications, even Dr. Wilson agreed with me on that assessment. On April 8th, Dr. Gray saw me for the first time. He said, and I quote the good doctor, “this prison is not the place to be with my health problems”.
Secondly, I am tired, tired of unfair and disrespectful treatment by the Bureau of Prison’s staff, who all act like cops first and foremost. I am always troubled whenever I hear and see injustice. I feel deeply that no human being, including inmates, should ever be treated unjustly. I am concerned about any discrimination, of any people, period! We are all God’s children and deserving of His/Her rewards and gifts.
Human dignity must be respected at all times. We should not have to compromise our dignity just because we are prisoners. We are not violent!!! Everyday of my life, I have wanted to be treated with the utmost of respect, and I have wanted to treat others with respect. I had hoped and expected others, like Waseca prison staff would feel the same, even now as a prisoner. Money, cars, power and homes deserve no respect, respect is earned and judged by the respect people have for themselves and others. We must respond to disrespect and violence by using the same words Jesus of Nazareth used on the cross, “Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do”. Due to my high ideals that I espouse, I feel very strongly when they are violated in the world and especially in this Waseca prison today.
With the utmost of respect,
Scott, #92093-020, Unit A
FCI Waseca